My Brother

Ere I am starring at a face...worn out bt at least in a restful slumber..I hope. The body may rest bt the brain is still active. I'm holding a baton at da bk on my hand jus in case he wakes up and starts to freak out. Hmmm...I shud start shavin im..mk em designs...flowers maybe...oh!!! s snake!!! I'll snap a pic n publish it b4 I die havin em baton hittin at da bk of me head instead.

It's a scare..major fer me n me sissy n me best friend. I've been lookin at tis face fer decades bt tis is da 1st tat I'm seein up close n personal. I still say I'm beta lookin thn im...bah!!!! rotflmao!!! Sori folks..I'm nt allowed to reveal his real pic..bt tis is da closest.
I wan him bk!! I'll sell me soul to da devil imself. I wan me bro bk. Laffin or evn playin tat bloody swingin kitchen door on me face. Seein him helpless on da hos bed is heartbreakin. Git well bro..we want ye bk!!!

I'm reposting an ode to me bro I did quite a while back.

My brother is my keeper
My brother is my best friend
My brother is my pain
My brother is my hero

To take life
To have life
My brother did both
He is the source of all evil
The good in every evil
He lay down at let life fly
When he arise he wants to die
To take life to a new heights

He does things that hurt me so bad
That I wish he would die
He punishes me for the simplest thing
That’s when I turn mean

He is my best friend
My friend that would do anything for me
From taking a life
To giving CPR
Stand next to me from thick and thin
Until the end of our time

He is my keeper
My keeper that feeds me
That helps me make decisions
He is were my home is
He will take a bullet, or knife
To throat
He is my brother and all ways will be my keeper

My brother......
My brother is my keeper
My brother is my best friend
My brother is my pain
My brother is my hero

My Hatred Grows

Everyday my hatred grows, I dunno why....my veins are tunnels for burning blood, and every second the fire flows, my soul’s been drowned into this flood. The world around me spinning fast, beautiful people who love their lives, an evil spell upon me has been cast, happiness and love are sullied lies.
Every minute this hatred builds, and every hour it grows stronger, my heart racing, it wants to die,
If I could just hold off a little longer…....
I'm in a state of anger and are desiring to act aggressively, it is usually because I am feeling pain that I have not yet dealt with. I become angry because I don’t understand why someone or something would cause me such pain, or cause another pain or is it because I am  impatient and don’t understand why something is not getting done fast enough or properly? Whatever the initial cause of the anger is, lies the answer in subduing and ridding me of feeling as though I must resort to other negative emotions such as violence, spite, hate, and vengeance. It is easier and in society, more accepted, to display aggression than to display pain. To display pain..displays weakness.
Oddly enough, to the trained eye or through experience, I of all should knows this bit of information can easily see pain through aggressive behavior and can also see that the pain is quite deeply rooted and is not being dealt with. It is akin to pushing a wolf into a corner until finally, at one impulsive moment, the wolf fights back.

Reason, Season & Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson,love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Dearest to the heart

Marisol Kattalakis SquireFury Kattalakis: When the storms would come And things would seem so badAnd I'd wanna cry AlmostI'd listen to my dad He promised that the rain would pass The day would soon be fair And I never was afraid because He's always there....I love you DADDY

Jeni Hurst ‎*hands on hips, glaring* EXCUSE ME? Did I just hear right? You`re leaving? *shakes head* There must have been something in my ears, cause that can`t be right. Like hell you`re leaving! Too many people here care about you. *mumbles, folding arms* I certainly hope Xi knocked you upside the head hard enough to make you come to your senses.

 

 

 

Lili FallenAngel ‎*sitting at the beach crying holding herself after reading a txt from Fury Kattalakis , whispering at the winds* Why, do people always seem to leave me? *shaking her head and wondering if she was destine to be alone*

Xirena Charonte ‎*Dragging a kicking, fighting Fury Kattalakis w/Fang Kattalakis & Dev Peltier. Pursing lips. Knocking him on head w/same iron skillet Xi used on Zarek Magnus.* Not sure WTH is wrong around here, but that evil bitch Moon Goddess is getting a visit from Xi! Tie Fury up, boys! *at Fury* Xi had a crap week in the hosp...ital. DO NOT MAKE MAKE XI SEE RED! WE LOVE FURY AND HE'S NOT GOING ANYWHERE!

Duct taped

I din expect to jumped on and be duct taped n git a brazillian waxed. Dang I dun even wan it even its fer free!!! I hve bald patches all ovr n I'm growlin at Dev, Xi, Fang and definetly Stacie. Nope I wont forget tis day. Wolf wont forget...dun yall knw our fur is our err...crown err...wateva. It's gonna take time fer em to grow back!!!
It's jus one of those days..well..been many days wit arguements ...disagreements..misunderstandings and issues on trust. It's one of those days whre ye jus flip and decides enuf is enuf. Honestly..I left..I came bk..I left and I still come bk coz I love all me friends ovr on fb. It's whre I can just be myself and have loads of fam to tease and annoy. I dun gv a damn on em dramas.
Today...I'm touched...rite to the core. Xi..I hate ye n I love ye bunches as well...rotflmao!!! Fury's nt spose to hv any friends bt he do realise tat nt the entire universe is out to kill im. Dev..ye a great bud..we seems to be puttin our foot in our mouth..tats da kind of bud ye are. Fang..my bro...elbows his hard..ye spose to help stop Stacie pullin out em tapes!!!!!!!!!! I'll do it on yall some day..I swear!!!!
I doubt my mate is happy wit em patches...

Ponders

I'm full of angst at tis moment bt yet I am calm. Counting 1 to 10 din help at all...so I had to continue right up until prolly 9959..when I forgot wat comes next. Shush..I knw it's 9960!!! Dang...why isn't thre any smiley icon in ere? :/ Bt at least my boiling point did come down as I laff at myself. I'm nt at work whre I'm sposed to be. Yeah...playin hookey..called in sick...honest..I am sick....*snickers......
Came home late last night after "patrolling". I just sat outside the porch in the cold night instead of coming in straight away. Sitting on Lia's rocking chair with those pink flowery cushion (she does tat to annoy me so I wud nt sit on it) bt it's dark..nobody sees it. I got myself to thinking...................................
Do one hv to explain to antr on who they are or wat they hv in their life? If it's life threatening ails or similar I might gv it a benefit of doubt...bt other thn tat..I dun tink so. I dun see any reason why I hv to explain why I have a fury butt...(literally speaking thre folks) or watnots. See me as who I am. I dun hv to elaborate on who are in my life or take out my family album and shw ye hw crinkly ugly I wos as a pup. Accept me or discard me for me. I won't go around whisperin sweet nuthin to anyone jus to make yall feel gd. I'm blunt at times and foul mouth...I hit bt I dun run unless I hv to look fer a tree or my brother's boots.
Nuthin is as picture perfect in tis life bt tat does nt mean anyone can assume anything or judge sm one. They hv their very own reason or reasons to keep wats in the closet (skeletons?) in da closet. Respect tat!
Ok..tats out of da chest...I'm gonna take me bike n go bite sm bugs!!!!

Darkness

Foggy...and the rain didn't stop the frustration of 15% visibility. Sniffs the air and I all I could smell are wet earth. The wet grass on my feet...but nuthin else around me.....I'm cold and I'm hungry. Something is wrong as I cld nt shift into my wolf form and what more to flash out of this so called nowhere. I tried calling out but my voice bounce back to me like a laughter mocking me. Am I alone..where the hell am I?  I wanna go home to Lia. Wrap my arms arnd her..breath in her scent...dang!!! Why can't she hear me when I call out to her?
Cold wind on me back n I turn arnd swiftly...nuthin.....smthin or smone is ere....I can't see who or wat. A banshee laughter shrieks thru the air got me startled. Its deafenin n I'm pissed.
Smtin struck me tat md me fell onto the ground. I cld feel warmness tricklin down on me which follows by stings. Lookin arnd fer my attacker bt still I cld nt see...
Growlin and again I hear em banshee shriekin. Tis time I cld feel the cold wind swoopin down on me. I cld mk out the claws divin on my face. Tried grabbin the claws.........

Woke up startled. Sweating like a faucet. It's a bloody dream!!!!!!!!! It's so freakin real!!! ...wat on earth wos tat? I nd to ask Ash or Sav if they knw n e tin abr dreams.