My Hatred Grows

Everyday my hatred grows, I dunno why....my veins are tunnels for burning blood, and every second the fire flows, my soul’s been drowned into this flood. The world around me spinning fast, beautiful people who love their lives, an evil spell upon me has been cast, happiness and love are sullied lies.
Every minute this hatred builds, and every hour it grows stronger, my heart racing, it wants to die,
If I could just hold off a little longer…....
I'm in a state of anger and are desiring to act aggressively, it is usually because I am feeling pain that I have not yet dealt with. I become angry because I don’t understand why someone or something would cause me such pain, or cause another pain or is it because I am  impatient and don’t understand why something is not getting done fast enough or properly? Whatever the initial cause of the anger is, lies the answer in subduing and ridding me of feeling as though I must resort to other negative emotions such as violence, spite, hate, and vengeance. It is easier and in society, more accepted, to display aggression than to display pain. To display pain..displays weakness.
Oddly enough, to the trained eye or through experience, I of all should knows this bit of information can easily see pain through aggressive behavior and can also see that the pain is quite deeply rooted and is not being dealt with. It is akin to pushing a wolf into a corner until finally, at one impulsive moment, the wolf fights back.