Ponders

I'm full of angst at tis moment bt yet I am calm. Counting 1 to 10 din help at all...so I had to continue right up until prolly 9959..when I forgot wat comes next. Shush..I knw it's 9960!!! Dang...why isn't thre any smiley icon in ere? :/ Bt at least my boiling point did come down as I laff at myself. I'm nt at work whre I'm sposed to be. Yeah...playin hookey..called in sick...honest..I am sick....*snickers......
Came home late last night after "patrolling". I just sat outside the porch in the cold night instead of coming in straight away. Sitting on Lia's rocking chair with those pink flowery cushion (she does tat to annoy me so I wud nt sit on it) bt it's dark..nobody sees it. I got myself to thinking...................................
Do one hv to explain to antr on who they are or wat they hv in their life? If it's life threatening ails or similar I might gv it a benefit of doubt...bt other thn tat..I dun tink so. I dun see any reason why I hv to explain why I have a fury butt...(literally speaking thre folks) or watnots. See me as who I am. I dun hv to elaborate on who are in my life or take out my family album and shw ye hw crinkly ugly I wos as a pup. Accept me or discard me for me. I won't go around whisperin sweet nuthin to anyone jus to make yall feel gd. I'm blunt at times and foul mouth...I hit bt I dun run unless I hv to look fer a tree or my brother's boots.
Nuthin is as picture perfect in tis life bt tat does nt mean anyone can assume anything or judge sm one. They hv their very own reason or reasons to keep wats in the closet (skeletons?) in da closet. Respect tat!
Ok..tats out of da chest...I'm gonna take me bike n go bite sm bugs!!!!